I thank God that I am married to a sinner. Maybe one day we will be saints, but being married to a sinner is the next best thing. There are not a lot of sinners left anymore. To know you are a sinner you have to believe in something and be striving for conduct consistent with that truth. Sinners can not be ignorant and undecided people. To sin you must have found truth, a truth that is consistent and stays the same in different circumstances. Truth brings peace and beauty into one's life. Ignorant people have not found what they believe in or believe in a truth that is inconsistent or changes with different circumstances. There may have been times in our marriage that I felt my husband was simply ignorant and needed to be educated on why something he had done was hurtful. He has taught many things to me too. Thankfully at this point in our marriage we have a common understanding of truth and know when we have hurt each other. We know we are just a couple of sinners.
I could also be married to a wicked man. Wicked people bend and twist truth. In the same way that wicker furniture means furniture made of twisted branches, wicked is wanting bad to be good and good to be bad. I have never found my husband to be wicked, he has always sought the good when he sees it.
With all this said, I reiterate that I am grateful to God that I am married to a sinner. A sinner is someone who is seeking God, someone who seeks truth, but falls short. A sinner is someone who can be forgiven, gets up again and moves forward. They are not lost in the darkness of ignorance nor twisted by evil. Yes, it still hurts to live with a sinner. We hurt each other. There is need for grace and forgiveness, but we are walking together with hope. Once you realize that your husband is just a sinner like you, how can you stay angry or resent them? Who can blame a husband for struggling on his path if his path is moving towards God? I face my own sinfulness everyday and struggle to love others fully. We all sin and fall short of the glory of God. I want to help, encourage, and love my husband just as Jesus comforted the sinners that He met. Being married to a sinner means that, although we fall, we are moving towards the same goal. We are just a couple of sinners trying to help each other get to heaven. Thank you God, that I am married to a sinner.
